moderate yay for me!

so i am not freaking out. which is big. and i think i may even be done working on it for the night. see, i currently have 9 pages of singled spaced outlining and thoughts. and i don't want anyone to say, "but laura, didn't you have 6 pages of single spaced thoughts when you started the day?" b/c yes, i did. but this is all a part of my process. and i can assure you that these 9 pages are very different than that 6. partially b/c i read over the 6 pages about 18 times and couldn't figure out what the hell to do with most of it. so i just put all the crap in another word document, to be pulled out when he tells me he hates everything i currently have. that way i can pull it out and say, "but look--it could be worse!"

anyways, i figure that with the 8 hours i have tomorrow, i'll be fine.

assuming i don't spend 2 of them bemoaning how much i f@!*ed up my trademark cold call (fingers crossed, don't call on me), then 2 hours eating with different shifts of friends and walking thru the hallways, then 1 hour buying a stamp and playing text twist, then one hour to go home and get my car and eat dinner, and then two hours hyperventilating. cuz that also sounds like a distinct possibility.