dammit

so i came to the library, intent on working all day on this paper. well 2 problems with this. the first is that i can't bring myself to do anything more than skim all this information i have printed out and none of it is clarifying at all what i should say for 25 pages, other than maybe i should change my topic, except i think i would have a similar problem with any topic. oh, and i've already gone to the effort of checking out every book the library has on child pornography.

the second problem is that i am SO EASILY DISTRACTED! now we all know that, but i think it's worse today. every time i detect movement, i look up. and i can't think of any location where this wouldn't be the case. oh, facing a wall, but then i just turn my computer on. and i'm too lazy to go to the 2nd floor of the library. how sad is that? i'm sorry, but it's just so far away.

anyways, related to this second problem is that recently there have been all sorts of new familiar-looking people acknowledging me in the hallways. and i know that i have met them. but i cannot figure out who they are or how i have met them. the obvious guess is halloween, a night where i talked to many people but remember just about none of it. then again, with me, it's also possible that i may have just overheard them talking about candied apples in the hallway and decided i would jump into the conversation and tell them what i thought about candied apples. at least with the fact that they acknowledge me i can rule out having just found them on stalkerweb/facebook and feeling like i know them b/c of that. cuz sometimes i have that problem too.

either way, it is very exasperating and i'm never going to get a paper written like this.