baby steps

i figure it's a step in the right direction that i only had to flee the office at 5:15 today, as opposed to about 2pm, like i wanted all last week. i'm almost to leaving the office at a time when a normal person leaves their office! i mean, not a normal attorney. but baby steps.

and today i even sucked it up and went to tell the attorney that i couldn't find anything on topic for this project. so now i'm looking some more. not that things are appearing out of nowhere. and, of course, i've not quite figured out what it is i'm supposed to be doing now. BECAUSE THERE ISN'T ANYTHING OUT THERE!

and i'm terrified that this is all my fault b/c i suck, but the evidence points to my doing things the right way and still not finding anything. the lexis man came in this morning to give us a "refresher course." except that every time he opened his mouth to make a suggestion, i finished the sentence and told him i had already done it and knew the billable implications to it. ok, that sounds obnoxious, but i have spent an awful lot of time in lexis training this year. so in the end, i concluded that i could have taught the firm's lexis refresher course. with my eyes closed. and gagged. i could have taught it in morse code, rapping out on someone's desk. and i don't even know morse code. [actually, lexis rep is one of those jobs i think i might like, and it wouldn't be an utter waste to have a law degree. so maybe today's interaction was worthwhile.] so as frustrating as it is, maybe there isn't an on point answer here either.

i swear that one of these days soon i will quit posting about my shortcomings regarding legal research. hopefully. b/c it's even driving me crazy.